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Its late.. its already 1:47am, and I just finish 2 out of the total 5 task I should have completed by today. I think this will be another late night for me… but stuff happened, and I have to bear with the consequences now.

I know, I have been ranting about my pathetic small world which seems to be so damn miserable these few days. I have been complaining about work…. and life altogether. My friends have asked me to join them out for their so called ‘happy hour‘, but I know if I do so, I’ll be in deep shit when I get back to reality and face the work I have to deal with. In addition to that, I don’t see the point of spending money on a couple cans/bottles of beer, and ending up bored having that yucky beer taste when the ‘happy hour‘ is over. It just spoils that whole ‘happy hour‘ concept. Maybe if there was some good expensive liquor for me, you can try to count me into that ‘happy hour’, but that would surely burn a huge hole in my small and empty pocket/wallet…..Ahhhh…. I promise this will not be another complain related post.. so here I go.. trying….

You see…there are a few things people refer to me in life… Some say I’m stubborn… others say I’m nice, proud, bad, mean, boring… and the list actually goes on. Frankly, I don’t really give a damn on what people say about me because its me… If its bad, I’ll try to change, but as my mum used to tell me… “Its hard to change someone“, and so I guess, the saying “Old habits die hard” do seem rather appropriate. Maybe some of you may wonder whether I am really all the things above?? Well, if its said, its true. That is a fact I think is undeniable. From my point of view, I am stubborn because I’ll do things my way if I think its the best way. If you think I’m nice? Well, maybe in somethings.. but I am also selfish.. so good over evil?? I think the evil side will prevail more. To the statement “I am boring”?? YuuuUUUuppPP!! Its so true to the extend that even golf would seem more interesting even if you hear it over the radio!! Trust me. Put me in a group of “overrated, and exciting yet talkative people“, and you will see me just sitting there, doing nothing, and saying nothing. Other statements?? hahaha.. you figure it out… I can’t judge myself… and even if I did, I’ll list down all my bad sides because I know that is so damn true!!!

(even my students fall asleep during my lessons)

Now, people do tend to wonder what do I do in my small fort I call “My Apartment“. To be frank, I do so much… I sleep, eat, drink, play, exercise and so much more.. but even then, there has been only less than 10 people (inclusive of family members) coming into my strong yet humble apartment. I don’t understand why some people love having people over, when I simply prefer my house to be mine.. all mine.. em, speaking of that, do you need proof of my selfishness now? hahaha.. (fake laugh for you guys)

Emm… so what now? I honestly don’t know. Part of me wants to sleep. Part of me want to finish my work.. and a small little naughty part of me wants to skip work tomorrow. (Yeah, If I could do so.. it would be really great!!). Owh well.. I guess I will do some work, and then, doze off..and if you see an update so close to this one tomorrow (5th May 2008).. you just know I skipped work….

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