I’m down again with flu and a cold. Darn..darn.. darn!! I hate flu!! I hate being sick!! Life has not been that easy these few days. There are so many request from so many parts, and being myself.. I tend to entertain each and every request as long as I can. Also received my official name card from the school (which I thought was free), but was later asked to pay RM10 for it . Err.. I thought teacher’s get there name tags free?? hmm….

The feeling inside me is so close to blank. It would be absurd to say its empty… but I can say its blurry. Very very blurry. What I wish to do is just sleep, and don’t bother about life at the moment. Its not that I’m giving up… No, I’d never give up on life. I’m stronger than that. Its just that when trouble creeps in, and uncertainty swells to a huge and most certain level… I’ll be more delighted to be alone. To say anything to anyone, would result in biased decisions, and maybe result in more sadness or uncertainty. To assume it will be all okay, would be just too darn optimistic, as the fact remains that no problems can settle itself down. Its not like dirt in water, which settles down when you stop stirring the water.

I’ve been listening to the song by Ungu entitled Cinta Dalam Hati, over and over again. The song is sweet, but sad… Here.. I’ll share it with you…. and try to listen to the lyrics (if you understand bahasa Malaysia/bahasa Indonesia that is). Ohya, please bear in mind, its just a song I enjoy now.. and it doesn’t have any connection to my life.

Well, more importantly… I think I need a lot of rest. I will try to finish all my work as soon as I can.. but I can guarantee that more will come. Like my mum said.. “work never finishes“. The only thing now is to do what I can.. and being me, I don’t like doing work at home.. which will make it difficult for me to finish any work. I’d like to relax at home. I don’t know whether I need to head out.. maybe just to clear my mind… or should I just sleep, and hope for the best tomorrow. I know.. I sound confused.. and I am… confused at 25… and I can see more confusuinb on the near future. Sound like a depressing post, huh?? Well.. not in the mood so far… and like I said.. I am just enjoying the song Cinta Dalam Hati... so you just got to listen to it…

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